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Monica ([personal profile] cellio) wrote2005-06-22 09:31 pm

my rabbi and the morning minyan

I talked with my rabbi today about my leading services at the other shul. He already knew that I've been going there for shacharit for years (not every day); I told him that this was because of ties to a particular group of people, not to that synagogue or movement in general, and if that minyan were to disband I would not seek out another. I'm committed to my movement, my synagogue, and my rabbi; I just don't see a conflict with also participating elsewhere in small doses. (My synagogue does not have a daily morning minyan.) I then told him that I'm leading that service once a week, that this was because they had asked me (I didn't initiate), and that I'd said "no" for a good long time before agreeing. I asked if this was a problem for him. (I also apologized for not coming to him about this much earlier.)

The discussion went in two main directions. There were the liturgical questions -- how do I feel about praying for the restoration of the temple sacrifices, resurrection of the dead, and so on? I work around the first [1] and am comfortable viewing the second metaphorically, so those aren't problems. We are going to discuss the liturgy more next time, when I actually remember to bring a copy of that particular siddur along.

The other part of the discussion had to do with appearances. How large is this minyan? Could I be seen as being the leader of the group in general, which has implications beyond the service? We concluded that there is not an issue here; I'm one of several people who leads (and I'm not the main one), I'm on a short leash liturgically, I'm not doing anything else in that congregation, and the group is small (we usually have a minyan by Barchu, but usually not by Kaddish d'Rabbanan).

We also talked about my motivations and whether this fits with my educational path; everything appears to be fine there after discussion.

So everything's fine, but I really should have had the clue to talk with him when it first came up. I find it really hard to initiate conversations sometimes; with luck I'll get better at this. I really feel close to my rabbi, but there's also this professional arm's-length separation that prevents us from just being friends who talk about things. I wonder how I can change that.


[1] Ok, this is going to be surprising for a Conservative morning service, but: we don't do a chazan's repetition of the Amidah. Everyone does the first three brachot together, and then after Kedusha everyone completes it individually. When I get to R'tzei, I use the Reform text (which I have memorized). [2] Also, Sim Shalom has toned that passage down somewhat, at least in translation.

[2] This is one of the reasons I said "no" for a while: could I legitimately be sh'liach tzibur (prayer representative) for the congregation if I did not say exactly the text in the siddur? The primary concern here was actually abbreviation, not substitution -- I pointed out that I am much slower with the Hebrew than most of them are but that I could use the alternative text for the intermediate blessings. The folks in the minyan seemed to care not one whit what I did during the individual reading. So ok.

forgive my ignorance

[identity profile] dmnsqrl.livejournal.com 2005-06-23 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
but what is difference between Reform and ..(?)Conservative(?) when it comes to resurrection of the dead?

Re: forgive my ignorance

[identity profile] dmnsqrl.livejournal.com 2005-06-23 03:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Those who do not believe in physical resurrection... do they tend to believe in a not-necessarily-physical afterlife or do they tend to not believe in an afterlife at all?

Or is it pretty consensusless on that point?
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Re: forgive my ignorance

[personal profile] goljerp 2005-06-23 04:56 pm (UTC)(link)
You're expecting consensus from Jews? :-)

In the current day and age, I would say that many Jews tend to focus on "this world", with possibly vague, warm, and fuzzy thoughts about some sort of afterlife... but it's not something that's talked about much.

My personal opinion? I'll find out far to soon what happens after I die... I'm in no rush to spoil the surprise.

At other times, Jews have believed more or less in an afterlife of various descriptions. I haven't read Neil Gillman's book on this yet, but I would reccomend it nevertheless if you're interested in learning more about the subject from a Jewish point of view.

Re: forgive my ignorance

[identity profile] dmnsqrl.livejournal.com 2005-06-23 05:35 pm (UTC)(link)
which book would that be?

Re: forgive my ignorance

[identity profile] dmnsqrl.livejournal.com 2005-06-23 05:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Sheesh, I actually read this at first as "Neil Gaiman" and I was _all_ confused
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[personal profile] goljerp 2005-06-23 09:50 pm (UTC)(link)
OOps, that would be confusing. :-)

The book is The Death of Death: Resurrection and Immortality in Jewish Thought, and it is by Neil Gillman.

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[identity profile] chaos-wrangler.livejournal.com 2005-06-24 03:54 am (UTC)(link)
You're not the only one. I was wondering when that author had written a book relevant to this subject/
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[personal profile] goljerp 2005-06-23 04:45 pm (UTC)(link)
I can't speak for the Conservative movement, let alone "Orthodoxy", but my feeling on it is that the C movement doesn't really like to think about the ressurection stuff all that much, but it's in the liturgy, and there isn't a compelling reason to take it out. When Rabbi Neil Gillman decided to write a book about Jewish attitudes towards death and ressurection, I think that there were a few people who weren't totally thrilled... better not to think about it.

On the other hand, some Lubovichers (Orthodox) are so OK with the idea of ressurection that they thought (think?) that their Rebbe has already been ressurected. The belief of the Lubovicher Rebbe's ressurection is not shared by non-Lubovich, and I have no idea how (un)common it is within Lubovich.

As another point of reference, the Reconstructionist movement also changes the Amidah to take out most of the resurrection bits.

I, personally, was convinced by a professor in college of the necessity of physical resurrection of the dead, so I say those bits, even when in places that don't. (I say it quietly then).
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[personal profile] goljerp 2005-06-23 10:39 pm (UTC)(link)
I'll try. I should note that the professor in question might not have personally believed this, but he was teaching what Philo thought about it. It might not be as convincing for you, but Here's how the argument goes, basically:

At some point, there will be a "Yom Din" (day of judgement) for all people. At that point, resurrection is a necessity: if this doesn't happen, then the soul will be called before G-d and will be able to say "Well, I wanted to do good things, but the body was always giving into those baser needs, and I never got around to it." And is it just to punish (or reward) the soul for what the body did? Likewise, if the body alone were called before G-d, it would be able to say "I was willing to do good things, but the soul just wasn't with it". So if things are going to be just and fair, you have to reunite body and soul at Yom Din, which is another way of saying resurrection.

Of course, if you don't buy the 'Yom Din" part, then the rest of the argument doesn't hold water...
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Re: forgive my ignorance

[personal profile] geekosaur 2005-07-01 03:37 am (UTC)(link)
That's actually an argument from the Gemara, IIRC.

And the point, as I understand it, is that the soul is not the only thing judged; the body and the soul are created together and affect each other, and neither is whole or functional without the other, so both must be judged together as they functioned together. Thus the resurrection is essential for Yom Din to happen at all. </gemara>

This does not, however, imply that it will be a time of strife; since it's occurring during the Messianic Age, neither strife nor difficulty is supposed to be possible. And while it's considered necessary (again, by the Gemara) for the body and soul to be judged together as they lived together, that doesn't mean the circumstances of their shared life need to be recreated during judgement.

(Again, as I understand it. And as usual I'm probably wrong somewhere :)