one year ago

[cellio]

Today there are large community gatherings to remember -- social-action drives, torah study with a variety of visiting rabbis, and a big memorial service.

And I can't even... I just can't do this with huge crowds. It's too painful, and also there's the irrational nagging voice in the back of my head that says "target" (guess I haven't banished it yet after all), and...

I spent that day hiding at home, and so I will spend today as well.

Healing is hard.

But I went to Shabbat services yesterday as I always do. I will not be driven out from there.

Comments

[asher553]

My condolences on your community's losses last year, and prayers for continued strength and healing.

[(Anonymous)]

My thoughts and prayers go to you.

It's OK to hide at home. Many, many years ago when my country went through a revolution and people were dying in the streets, I hid at home. Sometimes the survival instinct takes over. And I'm still here.

[julian]

Thinking of y'all.

[minoanmiss]

This is wise, taking care of yourself.
I'm thinking of you.