cellio: (star)
2003-09-21 01:21 pm
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obligations and commitment

Friday night's sermon was very good. This isn't a summary; this is a ramble inspired by it. Read more... )
cellio: (shira)
2003-08-24 01:11 pm
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Shabbat (mostly)

Wednesday I studied with my rabbi. Later I hope to write more about that -- in particular, the theology behind what the talmud calls "affliction of love". (Briefly, the idea that God gives you challenges because they'll make you better.) I have complicated feelings about this.

A few days ago I received email from a local gentile who's interested in converting to Judaism. (She found me via a mailing list.) She's been reading for a while but hadn't been to services and was nervous about doing that (this sounds familiar), so I invited her to join me for services and dinner.

She's a very nice person. Sounds like a seeker -- she's been thinking about this for years and isn't doing it because of a dating situation or the like. The more she learns the more it resonates for her. She got a lot out of the service, and I think she'll be back. I pointed her at other congregations in the area, too. Sounds like she really likes what she's seen of my rabbi, though; I wouldn't be surprised if she ends up with us.

Dinner was pleasant, and she and Dani also get along well. I'd like to invite her for a holiday -- maybe Sukkot, as she probably isn't ready to build her own sukkah yet. She's been to a few Pesach seders with friends, as it turns out. And if she decides to give our Shabbat morning service a try (she sounded interested, but not this week), I can also invite her back for lunch.

Yesterday there was no bar mitzvah, so we got to have a torah service and the rabbi didn't have to leave partway through study. After the service and study, some of us stuck around to discuss the new format, particularly implementation details. The plan is to do torah study first, so we can guarantee half an hour of the rabbi's time, and then do the service. The rabbi will leave partway through the service (if there's a later service for a bar mitzvah), right around the time the torah service would start. So we need minyan members to be able to complete the service, including reading torah. We have enough volunteers to get this off the ground, and I'm hoping we'll be able to get more, including supporting those who want to learn but aren't ready to just jump in.

We decided to switch in two weeks; we have someone who can learn a short torah portion in that amount of time. (We're not going to do the entire portion.) By virtue of having the foresight to bring a list of dates and torah portions, with room to add names next to them, I seem to have ended up as the person who keeps track of these things. :-) We're doing some delegation, though; the person reading torah in a given week is responsible for leading that part of the service (not just doing the reading itself) or recruiting someone, and also for assigning honors (aliya, hagbah...). That way I don't have to keep track of a bunch of different people for each week and worry about what happens on weeks when I'm not there. I call it distributed problem-solving; one of them called it "making my life easy". These are not contradictory. :-)

cellio: (moon)
2003-07-11 12:07 am

finding God

Real Live Preacher (syndicated at [livejournal.com profile] preachermanfeed) wrote an interesting article, which he concluded as follows:

Ok, as long as I'm asking, could I get a letter officially confirming the existence of the God that I've given my whole life to following? Could that letter also tell me exactly where God is located? If "where" is an appropriate concept, that is.
This is the letter I'm sending him:


The God you have given your whole life to following is all around you. Not in that mystic "God is in everything" sense, but more directly. We are created b'tzeit elo[k]im, in the image of God; that can't be physical because God is not limited to a body, so what do you think that means? I think it means that there are echoes of God in people all around us. God is in the heavens (and no, we can't know "where"), but God's reflections are all around us. But you have to look and listen.

I pray to God, but it's the stranger on the street or the friend or the relative I interact with, and that is where Godly actions take place. Faith is nothing without action, after all. If I focus on the heavens alone, what good is anything I do?

Does God actually exist? Ask yourself if that really matters, if taking that as hypothesis leads you to live the kind of life you want to live. Why look for proof? Would it change anything?

When I became religious (I wasn't always) I found that something was pulling at me. I didn't know what it was, but I finally decided to hypothesize the existence of God, pray and act as if I believed it, and see what happened. I guess I'm a scientist (or perhaps an engineer) at heart. And you know what? I saw results. Not results that I could show to anyone else, mind you; that's not how it works. But results enough to convince me that there was in fact a God out there who gave a hoot about me. Pretty amazing stuff.

cellio: (star)
2003-07-10 11:56 pm

Jewish geeking

I talked with my rabbi tonight and he said I should just go ahead and assign the parts for the service in a couple weeks, rather than giving him a list of names like we've done in the past. That makes things easier, but I hadn't known whether he wanted anyone else doing it.

I also talked with the new cantorial intern tonight. She seems really nice and easy to work with. She asked me to fill her in on how services work when there aren't any rabbis, and I did so. I told her she should pick whatever music she wants; I'm not going to try to dictate to her. We'll have a little huddle 20 minutes before the service to make sure everyone understands cues and it'll all be good. (I warned her that while I'm not new to the congregation like she is, I am new to being worship chair and she should let me know if she sees any problems.)

The rabbis will actually be gone for two Shabbats (that one and the next). The plan had been for the worship committee to lead one and the cantorial intern to lead the other. She told me tonight that she's a little uneasy about that, being new to the congregation and never having led a full service. I told her we have people who can lead a service cold (including myself) if need be and she should think about it and let me know what parts she wants to offload. We can decide this at close to the last minute, after she's had a chance to settle in a bit more. (I've already lined up a torah reader and am working on someone to give the d'var torah, so she doesn't have to do those.)

The torah portion is coming along well. I have one verse left to work out; I got to it (after working on this for a while) tonight, saw that it started with a trope symbol I don't know how to sing, and decided that this was as good a time as any to pause. I'll come at that fresh on Shabbat, when I plan to spend a lot of time working on this. But hey, I read the previous two verses without having to consult the trope book, so I'm definitely internalizing the more common symbols. I can currently chant about half of the portion from the unpointed text, and all but one verse of the rest from the pointed text (sometimes with hesitation). It's often flowing well. I think I'm in good shape for a service that's two weeks away. My rabbi will want to hear me chant it when I see him next week, and my goal is to have it nailed by then.

This morning's mini-class (after minyan) was on tevila, aka immersion in a mikvah (ritual bath). Read more... )

cellio: (star)
2003-05-25 12:08 am
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bookmark

Jewish-geeky-stuff book review: After the Return.
cellio: (tulips)
2003-03-28 12:44 pm
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lunchtime short takes

The evil melding-of-church-and-state bill passed the House. Bah. Yes, it doesn't really mean anything on its face; it's just a resolution for the president to say some words to endorse religion, and he does that on his own all the time anyway. But it's still offensive coming from Congress. I don't want to live in a theocracy, even if I got to choose the theology.

I got an auto-response from my representative yesterday saying, basically, thanks for the email and expect a paper letter in several weeks. He voted for it, so I'll probably get some patronizing piece of drivel about how in these tough times we all need to unite and do God's will or some such. Sadly, an elected Democrat from Pittsburgh need not fear reprisal at the polls. (How did your rep vote?)

Speaking of government, I should really get around to ordering a copy of my birth certificate. Maybe even getting a passport, just so I'll have it. I can probably make off with my parents' copy of the former to help with the Pesach trip to Canada in a few weeks. I've never had my ID challenged at the border, but times are different now and I'm travelling with a non-citizen who was born in the middle east.

Speaking of Pesach (sort of), frozen gefilte fish is much better than the stuff that comes in jars. I'm never going back.

Speaking of religion (ok, the transitions are getting weak): For those who were interested in the "conversion reruns" journal, see [livejournal.com profile] shira_reruns. It'll get off to a slow start (I didn't write as much at the beginning), with the pace picking up in June.

Apropos of nothing (hey, I can tell when transitions are a lost cause), I had a very pleasnt lunch with a friend and past co-worker yesterday. It's way too easy to lose track of people when you no longer see them on a daily basis. He also found this journal, which intrigues me because it's not googlable. Not that I mind, of course; I was just surprised.

I've advanced another hole on my belt, and many of my pants now require a belt. Woo hoo. But Pesach is going to be bad for this, isn't it? I guess I should work on keeping matzah consumption down; being dense, it's probably even worse than pita for calorie/benefit tradeoffs.

cellio: (tulips)
2003-03-17 11:42 pm

answers, part 3

The poll is here.

Do you have any big regrets?

Yes.

Oh, that's probably not the question you really wanted to ask. Ok, I can elaborate. :-)

The only time that I initiated a breakup of a romantic relationship, it played out badly and I feel that this was largely my fault. I'm not certain what specifically I could have done better, but I'm sure I could have handled it better in some way. The other person got hurt pretty badly (though he tried not to let it show), which was certainly no one's intent, and the friendship has never been the same. (It wasn't a hostile breakup; it was more of a "this isn't going to work" situation.)


Somehow you are on my read list.... do you know how you got there because I don't remember...

I don't know. As far as I know we don't know each other in real life, and we don't appear to have friends in common right now. Maybe we did and you saw me on a "friends of friends" list, or maybe you surfed randomly or via similar interests?


How far is your shul from where you are and how long does it take you to walk there?

Approximately 1 mile (less as the mole digs, but that's not an accurate measure of surface distance -- it just means don't trust maps in Pittsburgh). It takes me about 20 minutes to walk there on average. I can rush it in 15 minutes or so, but I rarely feel the need to rush on Shabbat.


Would you mind telling your conversion story (the long version)?

I don't mind. Let me try to figure out the best way to bridge the gap between the short summary and the longer version that, among things, manifested in approximately 150 pages of journal at the time. This may take a few days.

Actually, here's an oddball question (which is not, itself, an answer to your question, but more of a tangent): I could post that journal over a similar span of time in a different LJ ("reruns"?). It would take about a year altogether. (I think there's value in not just reading it all at once. I can't just post the entire thing as-is anyway, as I have to edit out people's real names and stuff like that.) Would this be at all interesting to anyone? Don't worry; I'm not using this as a way to blow off your question.

I'll also entertain more-specific questions by email, if that helps any. The hardest thing about trying to tell a big story is figuring out the parts that would be seen as interesting and significant to others.

cellio: (moon)
2002-04-30 11:01 pm
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a memory

[livejournal.com profile] tigerbright was talking about possibly going to a tikkun this year, and that made me think again about my first one. Jewish memories ahead. )
cellio: (Default)
2001-11-16 11:28 am

(no subject)

Another member of the "friends of ruth" mailing list (converts et al) turns out to be local. We exchanged some email last spring and then I was a klutz and lost her email address. She just got back in touch this week. We've never met, so she's going to come for dinner tonight after services. This worked out well, as it turns out that her husband and daughter are out of town this weekend so she would have been spending it alone otherwise.

She does have to sit through my cantorial pretensions, but she's ok with that. At least it makes identifying each other easy; she'll find me. :-) (She was, as it turns out, at Temple Sinai last week, not that either of us knew to look for the other. Her home congregation is Rodef.)

I enjoy putting actual faces and people with email addresses. I'm looking forward to it.

Hmm, last night there was a short discussion on the topic of responsibilities of board members. (Themes included the idea that you're always a board member, even in the check-out line at Giant Eagle, and what you do reflects on the congregation, and you're the eyes and ears of the board, and stuff like that. Those in the SCA can substitute "peer" for "board member" and recognize the ideas.) In light of that, I wonder if there are any PR-type issues with a trustee of one congregation playing a minor-but-public leadership role in a different congregation. *I* don't think so (if anything I think it brings honor to my congregation, not dishonor), but I wonder if anyone else would have issues with this. We've seen already that I do not really understand the synagogue-operations mindset.
cellio: (Monica)
2001-10-07 06:36 pm

my path to Judaism

A discussion in Laura's journal about religion has prompted me to post the following long message in my own journal. This is a letter that I wrote in late 1999, so apply that context. It's still accurate or I wouldn't be posting it.

Read more... )