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2001-09-29 10:40 pm

Friday night

I went to Tree of Life last night. There was a bar mitzvah this Shabbat, so the boy did some of the stuff that I would normally have done. He actually did more than I thought he would; at Temple Sinai the bar mitzvah makes kiddush Friday night but that's it until Saturday morning, when he does almost everything.

There's always a little "program" at services that lists service times for the coming week, who's leading which services, page numbers for the Torah reading, and so on. So my name was in this, as it was last time. (And yes, I collect the souvenirs at this point.) As I was sitting on the bimah waiting to start, I heard a familiar voice say "Monica??". I wasn't in a position to see who it was, but later I recognized one of the morning regulars and I think it was him. He came up to me afterwards and gushed. He can stroke my ego any time he likes. :-) (Several other people had nice things to say to me, which I found gratifying.)

The bar mitzvah was somewhat, err, melodically challenged, which I suppose is a common case for 13-year-olds. Since there was a microphone in front of me, I wasn't sure what to do on songs he was leading. I decided to turn my head away from the mike (I could still face some of the congregation while doing this) and sing; I'm pretty sure the mike didn't pick me up and overwhelm him. I tried to watch the front rows for feedback. (Yes, the relatives sat in the front rows. Regulars tend not to.)

This time I found the secret hidden glass of water before services started. These things are important. :-)

Rabbi Berkun introduced me this time as the "cantorial soloist". Whee. Yeah, that's what I am when I do this, but it still felt all warm and fuzzy to hear someone actually use the words. (Clarification: I am not a "Cantor"; that is a precise term for which I lack the credentials. Since you can't always hear whether the C is upper- or lower-case in conversation, I tend not to use the word by itself. I gather that "cantorial soloist" is ok, though, and "chazan" certainly is.)

I really enjoy doing this, and I perceive that I'm quite good at it. I don't think I'll end up doing it more than about every 6 weeks on average, and this strikes me as a reasonable balance between here and my own congregation.

I do wonder whether I should tell my rabbi about this. It's not a secret or anything, but I've seen no reason to bring it up, and it can be very hard to get "casual" private time with him. On the one hand, he shouldn't have a problem with it (if I thought he might, I would have discussed it with him first), but on the other hand, he might be hurt if he hears it through the rumor mill that I'm "moonlighting" on him. On the third hand, I don't want him to think that I'm unhappy at my synagogue (which I'm not), and he might never hear about it if I don't tell him.
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2001-08-26 12:57 pm
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Shabbat service

I'm pleased with the way that worked out.

You know how sometimes people will say "good job" and stuff like that after you've done something, and you can tell that they're being polite but not sincere? I didn't get any of that. People seemed to be genuinely happy with the job I did (including the rabbi). A couple of people thought I was a professional cantor. Someone who knows what he's talking about complimented me on my Hebrew pronunciation. All in all, it was a very satisfying experience for my ego. (Before the service the rabbi jokingly asked if I'd brought my "cheering section", and I told him that would be inexpedient for my first time; after all, who knows whether I'd successfully pull this off? So I guess I should bring one for the *second* time, just for amusement value.)

I believe that I made no Hebrew mistakes and only minor music mistakes (things that the rabbi would have noticed but no one else would have). I did have one disconcerting moment: one of the prayers that I had learned the chant for was one that I thought I would be doing alone, so I didn't worry about the fact that it mutated a bit as I learned it (musically speaking); the result was appropriate and who cares about minor ornaments and slight variants and stuff like that? I was not expecting the rabbi to say, at that point in the service, "we'll now join Monica in vaychulu". Oops.

It was really hard to tell whether people were singing along on things. I was up on the bima, and there was a microphone in front of me, and -- as is typical for this congregation -- almost everyone was sitting in the back third of the chapel. That was too far away for me to be able to watch people, and the loudest thing by far that I heard was me. On the first song (yes, everyone knows it) I thought it was that I'd picked a bad key for them; they probably weren't expecting an alto. But my choice of key didn't seem to have much to do with the observed results, so I stopped worrying about it.

When I met with the rabbi right before the service to go over some logistics, he noticed that I'd inserted transliteration for some of the Hebrew into my book and he said this made him unhappy. There were two reasons I sometimes used translit: (1) for anything where I had to notate music, because I haven't trained my brain to read music right to left yet, and (2) for places where there was risk of failure because it was text I had just learned for this service -- crutches, in other words. I know from past performance experience that sometimes your IQ simply drops 50 points when someone sticks an audience in front of you, after all. I was pleased that in most cases I didn't need to look at the translit; I'll have to report back on this when I next talk with the rabbi. (He told me afterward that he definitely wants me to do this again.)
cellio: (Default)
2001-08-24 07:00 pm
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a gig

In about an hour, I'll be leading Shabbat evening services "solo" for the first time. (This is at Tree of Life, not my home congregation. I was recruited for occasional cantor-like stints. Yes, the rabbi will be on the bima so if I completely space there's a save, but the rabbis there don't lead the service -- they give sermons, but lay people lead.) This will be neat! I love my own congregation (Temple Sinai) and am not about to abandon them or anything like that, but this is an opportunity that I basically don't have there, so when the rabbi at ToL asked if I'd be willing to help them out I didn't have to think about it very long.